Hard Goodbyes.

I guess that for some reason it had not occurred to me that as a military wife I would be making friends that I would have to part with eventually. I also never realized that it would be so hard on me to say my goodbyes. I just found out this week that my first good friend here in Washington is going to be leaving this summer. I am extremely sad about it. I don't want her to go. I am going to miss her and I am going to miss her kids. It's going to be really hard on me to not see those kids grow up and become the amazing people that I know that they will be. It breaks my heart that I might grow apart from my friend.

I think that a big factor for me is the fact that back home I don't have a lot of friends that are the kind of moms I have met here. Almost none of my mom friends at home are stay at home moms and a lot of them do things very differently than I do. I truly feel that my mom friends here, in Washington, have helped me grow into a better, more hands on parent. This particular friend, who is leaving, is a great mom. She does everything for her kids and they love her to death. She is also a wonderful wife. I look up to her in a lot of ways and it is going to be sad for me to see her go and to lose that influence.

I had a really hard time moving here because I don't make friends easily. I don't require a lot of friends to be happy, I just prefer to have a few that I really like. I feel like I met a small group of awesome women, all of whom I love for different reasons. It is going to be very difficult for me to say goodbye to them now that I have become close to them. It is going to be really hard for me to say goodbye to their children, as well, each of whom I love. I don't take friendship lightly.

Why did it escape me that I would have to say a whole new set of goodbyes eventually? I wish that there was someone that I could write a letter to, asking that only people from Colorado be admitted to the Navy, so that I would never have to say goodbye. What a mess.